Thursday
I always adore seeing Ali, she's quirky, fun and incredibly giving. During my dark times earlier this year she was a total rock. Not complaining once, even when I was calling her up at 4am, drunk as a skunk and in a total mess.

I met Ali via my ex, and tonight I met again a lovely couple who I've really missed since we split. It was so good to see them again, and it was wonderful to realise that they felt the same. Although, I somehow doubt that I'm still going to be their bridesmaid! :o(

Of course the split was bound to crop up in conversation even though I think we where all trying to avoid it (I know I was).

I had a little vent over some things that had really upset me. But these days, I'm not all bitter and twisted over things. My ex and I both made some fk ups, I did mine during the relationship and she balanced things out at the end. I believe she's truly happy now, and I'm glad. I hope she is anyway, she deserves to be.

She once said that she hoped one day we would be friends, I poured scorn on it at the time but I'd like to think that maybe one day that might be the case. I think I'll always have feelings for her. And I'll always cherish what she shared with me, as she opened my eyes to so much and totally changed my life. Not just my life as Karol, although its no exaggeration to say that I wouldn't be writing this today if it wasn't for her. For many, many things I'll always be grateful.

Friday
I had a really good chat with Emma on Friday night. And at one point she mentioned that there's a pecking order in society and Jo Public sees us as being at the bottom of it. She'd barely had a chance to utter these words when the Biggest Looser in the Bar came over to talk to us. Now that's fine, but the sheer arrogance of the man was astounding. Even though I'd pointed out that we were both actually in the vagina business. He just couldn't get his head around the fact that we didn't want to sleep with him, singly, together or in any combination! It was just as Em had said. He might be the Biggest Looser in the Bar but in his eyes we were even further down the food chain and we should just be jolly well grateful that he was offering us such a wonderful opportunity! It was actually quiet funny, especially when he ended up having a hissy fit and storming off because we weren't taking him seriously!

Saturday
Thankfully, it didn’t rain on Saturday at BGO as I was in a little summer number and I'd have looked a bugger if it did (although some may have thought I looked a bugger anyway!)

Tina, Catherine and I had been decadent and bought some VIP tickets but to be honest they were a waste of money and I won't bother with them again. We quickly left the VIP enclave and joined our pals for some serious dancing. I must say though that the loo's where much nicer in the VIP bit! Some of the standard ones where seriously gross.

One of the highlights for me was seeing Electric Six and The Human League. Electric Six where brilliant, and Catherine and I had a great spot dancing by the main stage. And just afterwards the Human League came on, gosh nostalgia! I thought they sounded ace, and was so happy that I managed to see them.

But it was one of those special days where everything comes together. And just as we were leaving, Frankie came on for the finale so we got to see them too!

After BGO, we headed back into London and took a moment to recharge at Todd and Em’s local. Most people faded at this point (understandably!) but a few of us headed off to G-A-Y. Somewhere I've always wanted to go. And guess who where playing that night? The Human League! A total surprise and a double treat! They were brilliant (again!), and did a really long set. And by this point, I was telling anyone who would listen how I completely adored Joanne Catherall (the lovely brunette singer) and how I sooo wanted to be her when I was younger! "She totally inspired me!" lol What a dizzy b**ch I am sometimes!

After that I simply danced my tush off for the rest of the evening. And of course I chatted to anyone who would stand still long enough.

I had a wonderful weekend, and I just feel so lucky to have such lovely friends. While at G-A-Y, I just felt so happy and so incredibly lucky to be there, I wanted to pinch myself. The thing that hit me was that I felt accepted, I felt part of what was happening not some freak that was being tolerated on the periphery.